A new beginning

It is the beginning of a new month, the second one of the year, but more than just that.  For me today it is the beginning of being restored to faith—yet again.  The second of the 12 Steps is: "Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity."  Last month was an "unmanageable" one as I allowed fear and my own willpower in response to that fear to occupy many of my thoughts and my days.  In December, I had completed a project dear to my heart—a novel about a mystic healer—and began to doubt (and, in some ways, avoid) going forward. Without going into the details, I want to affirm that I intend now to paddle with the current not against it.  I will discover what my actions are to be and how I shall attract into my life the needed financial and other resources.  I do know that it is more likely that these resources will be attracted and allowed as I remain in faith and connected to the Power that is both greater than myself and is me.  It is from this Infinite, Refreshing Wellspring I shall drink.  It is from my Divine Inner Director/Employer that I shall ask and receive direction.  


We could call this an experiment.  An experiment in faith, in which I pause to listen for guidance rather than chasing or avoiding my mind's projections.  I am willing to try this differently—to "risk" faith.